At 2pm, I was checked again and had made it to 8cm dilated so didn’t need the hormone drip in the end! I really do think that the epidural helped my body to relax and dilate and was so grateful to my partner and the team of midwives for supporting my decision for this.
Although I didn’t get the unmediated water birth that I wanted, I was so happy with my birth and really would say that it was a positive experience. I would do it all again in a heartbeat for our darling girl Ivy.
Once the pool became warm enough, I moved back downstairs to complete the last stages of our labor journey in the water. Hugging my husband over the side of the pool and listening to my mediation music in candle light, whilst my body brought baby Jude into the world at 7.25pm. I lifted him out of the water with my own hands and Adam cut the cord that had connected us for the past 9 months.
Our new family hugged it out on our sofa whilst mine and Adams mums made us tea and talked us through our very first (first of many) nappy changes - Complete Bliss!
So, what part did the hypnobirthing course play in all of this? The answer is – I believe a very large part! Even though my labour and birth were a completely different experience to the one we were hoping for, I still felt in control, and know that the choices we and our care givers made under the circumstances were the best ones for us and our son. Although the direction my labour and birth took was what I feared most, I still somehow felt quite relaxed, and despite all the chaos, I was able to go with the flow and enjoy the experience in a different way, and far more calmly than I would ever imagined I would.
The shutters in the lounge were closed so the lighting was dim, and I got down on all fours on the floor leaning over the sofa, with a fleecey blanket pulled over me. I really felt the need to be warm and covered. Whilst I rocked and swayed I stayed in this position throughout as it instinctively felt most natural to me. My husband put my chosen music on and it was the most intimate atmosphere.